closer...

i am coming nearer to my trip to panama and to be totally honest i am freaking out. my emotions seem to be all over the place and i feel that there isn't one thing that i can do to keep them grounded other than to cry out for God. i feel pulled in a hundred different directions with vague points of entry and exit. i want to go running to the hills. thankfully though where we are going in panama is in the hills. for the most part i have felt very much in control of my body, and emotions, but today it just hit me out of left field of all the things that have to get done before i leave. that this trip is definitely not like the last time i went to panama, where all i had to worry about was myself. this time i have about 20 other people that i am accountable for.
not only that though i have responsibilities of my own that have to get done before leaving. tonight though i had the privilege to speak and encourage the first time kids that are going to panama. i came home and talked with my parents before getting ready for bed. i got on facebook to check what my friends were doing and had going on. then i got on biblegateway.com because a friend of mine had posted a scripture verse and i was just curious to see what the scripture verse of the day was. the verse  talked about God being my strength in the trouble times. he is the one that gives me tread to walk another step. he is the director of my stringed life. it is in these moments when God speaks and pours into my life and all i can do is just rejoice and thank Him.
it is in my moments of feeling overwhelmed and stressed that God just sends the people that i need most to speak into my life. as i am about 6 days from my trip i only ask for prayer. that you would seriously remember our team that is going. that God would have a huge impact on our lives forever. that callings would happen and be solidified, and become a reality for some. that God would show up and be so thick and tangible. that the lives of the people of panama would never be the same again. that God would just soften their hearts to hear what they so desperately need. that we would allow God to be our strength, tread, and director of our lives. here is the verse that i found.

the sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights. for the director of music. on my stringed instruments. Habakkuk 3.19