writers block.

i hate it when i'm asked: "oh what were you just thinking about?" not because i don't want to share what i was just thinking about, but because i have no clue what i was just thinking about. later on it is in those moments when i am desperately searching my brain for what i was thinking about, that i am reminded of my dreams that God has placed on my heart. every second that i can daydream i do. i was reminded of the importance of dreaming yesterday. my pastor's wife preached for mother's day about dreaming. you see everyone has a calling or a dream, things that they want to see happen in their lives, but sometimes we have these little things called writers blocks, which can sometimes prohibit any kind of dreaming to occur.
recently i've been challenged to think about my calling, my dream. there are so many things that i wish i could share with the world on how i would love to turn the world upside down on its axis, but it is also these dreams that hold me back from doing so. i am reminded of the simple words my parents told me about being careful who you tell your dreams to, because not everyone is going to believe and want to see you achieve. there are going to be nay-sayers who are going to continuously put you down and try to kill your dreams, and when we start believing these people we start the process of writers block. we start allowing people to control our dreaming patterns and allow them to creep into those precious moments when we developed those dreams and kill them from the inside out.
recently i have been feeling like my creative juices where running on completely empty, like i had nothing left to even restart my system. i hit the writers block. i felt drained, like my life was somewhat sucked out of me. that even taking the slightest breath was going to break me. it was in these moments, however, when i truly allowed the author of my life to breath in me, and write a little more of this chapter. it was also in these moments when God sent some influential people into my life to just encourage me without even realizing it. now i'm not saying it was an overnight fix, because that would be a lie, but i am telling you that i started the process of breaking this awful writers block.
it was in this moment when i was trying to reignite my flame, my passion, my dream that a kari jobe song came on and sang to this tender part of my soul. her lyrics to we are say: so wake up sleeper, lift you head, we were meant for more than this, fight the shadows, conquer death make the most of the time we have left. my dream is waking up again and i know that it is a delicate process to fully reach my potential, but i'm not giving up. i'm not backing down until i see it fulfilled in all of its capacity. what so many people don't realize is that dreams make us human, they remind us that there is a God who before the foundations of time predestined us and already marked out the steps before us. they remind us that we are to keep going. so i ask you...what are your dreams? what have you stopped fighting for? what have you settled for? was it that relationship, was it that affirmation? now was it worth is? whatever your dream is, it is not too big, or small for you. it was made exactly the way it was for you because God knew that you would fight for it, conquer all the challenges and obstacles that came with it, and that you would see it through all the way until the end and then some. so don't give up, keep going. more than anything keep dreaming!